I wrote recently about the height of self acceptance. But inevitably, life insists on pulling me back down to depths of self doubt. Sometimes I feel that by being myself, I’ve resigned myself to a life of dissonance.
There are times when I wish I could be interested in “normal” things; that I didn’t have an innate desire to challenge myself or challenge other people’s ideas about the world through the exploration of it. I see how travel has shaped my interests and wants. I see the challenges of living in a world that is consumed with things I no longer give a crap about. And how I have to constantly explain why I don’t.
But for better or worse, through both choices of my own and choices of fate, this is the path I am on. When I need reminding of that and the struggle that accompanies it, this is the song I turn to:
“Would you prefer the easy way? No? Well, okay then… don’t cry”
So how to continue the hard way? With gratitude for having the courage to take advantage of and create incredible opportunities, no matter how crazy they may seem. With hope for a future without regrets. And with acceptance of my choices as ones that have helped me build considerable reserves of strength and led to indescribably sublime moments.
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